Am I crazy?

... So, here I am... I am getting in a more a 'healthy' routine, making better food choices and really starting to notice a change in myself and my body! Is this becoming an obsession? Have I created a monster? The answer I found for myself, was no. Other people might see it different but I had to tell myself -- WHO CARES WHAT THEY THINK? *Side note* this goes for many other things in my life, I always worried what people thought of me, what I was doing, how I mothered my children. You name it, I worried what people thought. But really, why should I care? I am doing this to better me, be around longer with my husband and kids. I am going to be able to enjoy things better with my two crazy, active boys. I can play with them outside, run with them... They are keeping up with me now! 

    Not only was my appearance changing but my mind and attitude were changing as well. Don't get me wrong, my changing body was great BUT I think my outlook on life and what I wanted for myself and family was my real prize. I was able to throw that crappy medication away and live on my own terms. It just wasn't for me. That being said, I do believe there are definitely reasons people need medication but I was feeling better than I EVER had without it. It's amazing what a good diet and exercise plan will do. So, I did what I felt was best for me and my body. Now, there are definitely times where I doubt myself, feel crappy or whatever but it's not the same as before.

  This has really been more than just a 'workout' journey for me. I found myself. I look at my husband and children different. I treat others different and by that I mean, I'm not so quick to judge. Everyone takes different paths or has different struggles. I got so good at hiding how I was feeling and that just spilled over into my judgement of others. Sad but true. NOW... I truly want to help others. I walk in my own shoes now with confidence(for the most part)and no one will ever walk in my shoes. So, what does that mean? I want to help others gain that confidence and walk in their own set!


Moral of 'my' story.... It's not an obsession, it's a way of life for me. I am bettering myself for me and my family. I am not going to let anyone make me feel bad about it. Do what makes you HAPPY!!




-Ashlee